Analysis of Eiríkr’s Playlist

I know I said I was going to do Cwen’s next in that comment, but Cwen’s list is like Anya’s…it never ends.

Erirkr is so much easier. And I think I’ve done this somewhere, or at least listed most of the songs out. But heck, might as well.

Rain by Yoko Kanno

This song is from Cowboy Bebop. It’s a tragic anthem for a man whose lost his love and is walking through a nightmare he can’t wake up from. He moves through life half in the past, hardly in the present. For a long time after Ninim died, this was Eirikr.

The Price of Freedom by Tekaharu Ishimoto from Final Fantasy VII: Crisis Core

Eirikr paid a huge price for freedom from his father’s tyranny. While he is grateful that his brother and sister are safe, his heart remains sorrowful. He wishes it had been him that died beneath the eaves of Mirkwood, but knows that without him, his brother and sister would be left alone.

Zero Kiryuu Theme from Vampire Knight

A sad, lonely instrumental about a man (vampire) that hates himself for being what he is. Who lost everything. And who can never have that which he loves.

The Mountains Win Again by Blues Traveler

Eirikr has a wandering heart and a sad soul. He feels keenly the pain of the world. But he tries not to let the surface crack; stoic and solid.

Men are not to cry so how am I to stop it
Keep it all inside don’t show how much she rocked ya…

Anything for You by Ludo

His song for Ninim.

Never, Never Gonna Give You Up by Cake

Another song for Ninim that reflects the lighter, more playful side of him. The Barry White version is just too pr0nstarish.

Drunken Lament by Ludo

Another “my wife is dead and there isn’t enough sorrow to drown my alcohol in” type of song.

Hey Leonardo (She Likes Me for Me) by Blessid Union of Souls

This is how Eirikr feels around Eruviel.

Zabathôr’s Playlist

Just to have it here, too.

Zabathôr’s Playlist on Grooveshark

A Dream is a Wish Your Heart Makes by Lily James from Cinderella

So, the big question is wtf is this song doing on Zabathôr’s playlist.

Zabathôr is all about big dreams and big success. Somehow, beneath Mordor’s tutelage he grew to translate force and power into the force and power of one’s belief in the possibility of success. Perhaps because he always felt very spiritual in relation to his magic even though he understood it was manipulation of the physical.

His ability to manipulate his words to convince others to side with his cause comes in part from his true sincerity in his belief of his own words, as well. He creates dreams for others and convinces them that all they need to do to see them through is wake up.

Also, the soothing, lullaby tone of this song reminds me of the tone he sets when he woos those around him. Sweet, charming, motherly.

Come, child, I will make it all right.

Firestarter by Prodigy
Zabathôr loves fire. It’s pretty and hot and is easily too powerful to control.

But he can control it.

Just ask Sage.

I’m the trouble starter, punkin’ instigator
I’m the fear addicted, danger illustrated
I’m a firestarter, twisted firestarter…

Seriously, though, picture Zabathôr walking into frame with flames all around him, his hands out to his sides as his palms and fingers burn, with the intro of this song in the background.

Be Prepared from The Lion King
Oh, the grand, scheming, charismatic, bad guy. Zabathôr needs you for his army (of slaves) and sends you smooches. But he thinks you’re a dumbass.

Skeletons on Parade by Ludo
(Oh, look, it’s Ludo after all…)
Zabathôr always wanted his own little army of undead that would be completely under his control. They would wreck havoc and then drink until the ground beneath them was stained red with wine.

Bleed it Out by Linkin Park
Who doesn’t like to party? And bleed? I mean, every party has to have blood, otherwise it just isn’t a party.
Zab would totally be jammin’ to this as he tortured someone. He’d even stop to headbang to the chorus.

I’ll make you face this…

On a more serious note, however, underlying the fun times, Zabathôr feels like the puts quite a bit into keeping the Four Lords whole. It might not be physical, but at times, he feels drained by their efforts and the lies.

Forest by System of a Down
Zabathôr has never lived for another person in his life. He’s never taken a moment to look past what he thinks he knows is right. Lately, something has changed that and this song has dual meaning for him.

First and foremost, he is beckoning for Pharazanû to join him in the grand success he sees for the Four Lords. He knows it is against Pharazanû’s nature and it is very difficult for the younger man to “walk with [him]…to the forest of denial.” He hopes that eventually, he will be all right.

On the other hand, Zabathôr is looking at himself and his role in creating the forest itself. He’s finding himself split and is having to face himself for the first time through the eyes of a different sort of soul. One that is usually a victim of one like him.

Closer by Nine Inch Nails
“I dedicate this song to a special someone in my life…”

My Eyes by Neil Patrick Harris and Felicia Day from Dr. Horrible’s Sing-Along Blog soundtrack
Um. Hard to explain without giving away too much. Will update. >.> Nothing to see here now, though. Move on. Move on.

Grapevine Fires by Death Cab for Cutie
This might seem just as odd as A Dream is a Wish Your Heart Makes. So first, some context.

Forest fires are normally a natural part of nature that cleanse and allow regrowth like prairie fires. But human interference, negligence, and construction have turned them into something unnatural. Their destruction can be devastating.

I hear this song as the confrontation between humans and nature. In this song, a forest fire in California looms. Nature fans the fire and everything seems to go against the humans. Things look bleak. But the juxtaposition of the little girl laughing and dancing “through a field of graves” sort of sums it up for me. The destruction is needed. Natural. And everything would be all right.

This is from Zabathôr’s childhood. I picture little kid Zab standing in a field of destruction, smoke, and ash, and having to process that. Having to get beyond it if when it burns away, it doesn’t regrow. I hear him telling himself that everything will be all right given time just like this song does.

If only the rain would come.

Everything You Ever by Neil Patrick Harris from Dr. Horrible’s Sing-Along Blog soundtrack
This is a glimpse into the future and the past. Zabathôr has lacked emotions for so very long as a survival mechanism. He’s on the cusp of greatness. What is he willing to sacrifice to get there…?

(By the way, if you’ve never seen Dr. Horrible’s Sing-Along Blog, I highly recommend it.)

Beelz by Stephen Lynch
While this seems like a troll song, I actually think it captures Zabathôr’s charming, irreverent attitude toward many things. And he has that peppy cheerfulness, as well.

Of course, it doesn’t capture the cruel seductive side of him.

Analysis of Anyatka’s Playlist

Anyatka’s Playlistanyas eyes

Learning to Fly by Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers

Anya is growing up. Though she’s in her early twenties, she’s been so sheltered that it seems like only now is she learning about the world around her. It’s her bildungsroman and though she started out alone, she landed in Bree and luckily, there she found people who are teaching her how to fly.

Garden by Noe Venable

This is Anya’s main Morty song. She knows that she only gets stolen moments and that there are hidden secrets between them. But when she’s with him, it is all she needs. Every verse echoes their relationship to me.

Death is rattling the cage/Like a bird that would escape/But there’s no room for thoughts like these/In the garden where we sleep… Come on. It says death.

And I am on a burning ship/Clothes all flying in the wind/But I am beautiful like this/When you hold me in your hands… Something about their love feels like it can only end in a tragic ending, but she feels more beautiful because of that tragedy.

Always searching for those breasts, pumping morphine…Don’t you fly to them, you can fly to me… She’s pleading him to only choose her, though she knows it’s in vain.

I’ll take the moment in my hands/Pull it open ‘til it sings/Before the motion of this place/Where nothing stops to have a name/Will leave us hanging like a tear… Anya savors every moment she has with Morty. She doesn’t know what it is and knows that it will end in tears, but she will live in the moment with him while she can.

Sally’s Song by Amy Lee from Nightmare Revisted

Anya’s pining song for Morty. She is very much Sally in that she’s wiser than some give her credit for, but she lacks the full confidence to fully be heard. Her persistence, like Sally’s, brought her to Jack. I mean Morty.

The Horror of Our Love by Ludo

Ludo is awesome and all my playlists have a Ludo song (except for Zab’s, I think). Just listen to the lyrics. Only, they don’t really like eat each other. Not like that, at least.

I think this song captures Anya’s intensity in her feelings for Morty, though, in all seriousness. She and he are one in her eyes and nothing can end that.

And you bury me in the ocean floor beneath you where they’ll never hear us scream…

Worthy by Ani Difranco

Wow, guess what! Another Morty reference! This was certainly from when they were still doing the cat and mouse chase. Morty’s big line was something to the effect that he’d ruin her and broken and not good enough or something and she was like, SO? Who is, really?

Overlap by Ani Difranco

Another, ahem, Morty song from before they got together.

Mr. Brightside by The Killers

Anya smiles the good smile regarding Morty’s reputation and the fact he’s got others. And she is actually fine with it only because it allows her to be with him as well. But she has her moments when she gets jealous or upset.

Pretty Girl (The Way) by Sugarcult

Anya’s not that good at choosing compatible mates. That aren’t dead.

Asking Too Much by Ani Difranco

I feel like this is pretty self-explanatory and can also be a Cwen song.

Wicked Little Town (Hedwig Version) from the Hedwig and the Angry Inch soundtrack

((Why the hell does she have so many songs?))

You know what, this one would be better for Lina. I’m moving it to hers. So there.

Origin of Love from the Hedwig and the Angry Inch soundtrack

Anya is such a romantic. She truly believes in soulmates and fate bringing two people together and all that shtuff. Faethril and Aeron’s subplot is supposed to support this in her (harhar) and I hope it does so accordingly.

Down Easy by Noe Venable Trio

When she finally took off from Dale, the world was an alternate reality and she often felt like a ghost walking among the folk of Bree. Yet, she started to find her voice and grew into her tragedy.

In addition to this, so often Anya feels let down by people. She’s rather optimistic and believes in the possibility of good in the world, so this can be hard for her.

Calypso by Suzanne Vega

Anric? Morty? Canderas? All of the above?

I think this was first added when she tried to give it a real go with Anric and she chose to let Morty go. She loved Morty so much, but knew she couldn’t keep him, et cetera, et cetera.

That worked out well.

Anticipate by Ani Difranco

When Anya was learning how to get by in the real world, she learned this stuff the hard way. She was incredibly gullible and if she hadn’t run into Morty and Eruviel first thing, who knew what would have happened to her.

‘cause someone you don’t know is someone you don’t know
get a firm grip, girl, before you let go
for every hand extended, another lies in wait
keep your eye on that one


Grey by Ani Difranco

The small, dissatisfied part of her feels exactly this way.

you walk through my walls
like a ghost on tv
you penetrate me
and my little pink heart
is on its little brown raft
floating out to sea
and what can i say
but i’m wired this way
and you’re wired to me
and what can i do
but wallow in you
what kind of paradise
am i looking for?
i’ve got everything i want
and still i want more
maybe some tiny shiny key
will wash up on the shore

Don’t You (Forget About Me) by Simple Minds

Anya’s biggest fear is being alone with no one to remember her or love her.

Stay by Lisa Loeb

For a long time, I didn’t know why this was an Anya song. But I think it’s for Anric. She has such complicated feelings for Anric. She truly did love him, but when he left her so she could choose without the pressure of his desires, she felt like she left him because she wasn’t good enough. She felt like the fact she still loved Morty was something wrong with her.

Please by Ludo

This is a plea to Morty to save his best love for her. And she secretly hopes he feels the same way in that he hopes she’ll save her love for him.

Voices in My Head by Stephen Lynch

This is my comic song in reference to Anya’s predicament with Faethril and Aeron taking residence in her brain. She doesn’t need cocaine, though.

Vampire Knight by “Brandon” (English cover of Vampire Knight opening song Futatsu no Kodou to Akai Tsumi, or Two Beating Hearts and a Crimson Sin)

I really enjoy this dude’s cover of Fatatsu no Kodou to Akai Tsumi even though its not the entire song. It fits, though. You can get a different version of the full lyrics here.

Stay With Me

Stay With Me

Been trying to write Cwen’s goodbye to Durrow for about a week now. It’s two sentences long, though I have a lovely screenshot. Clearly, it’s not going so well.

This post a while back that featured Passenger’s Let Her Go was Cwen’s song that was mainly related to Oendir. Today, here is a song for Rheb. The start of their relationship was just a one night stand for Cwen; when pain and longing turn into comfort and warmth, is it just as genuine a love?

Sam Smith’s original is beautiful, but Ed Sheeran is better. Because he’s Ed Sheeran.

Guess it’s true: I’m no good at a one night stand
But I still need love ’cause I’m just a man
These nights never seem to go to plan
I don’t want you to leave; can you hold my hand?

Oh won’t you stay with me?
‘Cause you’re all I need
This ain’t love it’s clear to see
Darlin’, stay with me

Why am I so emotional?
No, it’s not a good look; gain some self control
Deep down I know it never works
But you can lay with me so it doesn’t hurt

Oh won’t you stay with me?
‘Cause you’re all I need
This ain’t love it’s clear to see
Darlin’, stay with me
Won’t you stay with me?
‘Cause you’re all I need
This ain’t love it’s clear to see
But darlin’, stay with me

That Random Song that Gets You in the Feels

As I was grading papers today, I was listening to a random YouTube mix based off of Newton Faulkner. I wasn’t really listening to the playlist, though, because grading. So as I was typing out answers to the parts of speech exercises in order to create an answer key, I didn’t understand why I suddenly got incredibly depressed. I mean, typing out

  1. noun
  2. adjective
  3. pronoun
  4. noun

isn’t really all that emotional.

So I paused my work and clicked over to the YouTube tab and restarted the song that was playing. I don’t listen to a lot of radio, nor do I expose myself to a lot of random music on internet or app stations, so I had never actively heard “Let Her Go” by Passenger, and that was the song.

Music effects me (as it does most of us) pretty strongly and that is one of the reasons why I love it so much. But I don’t appreciate it when it sneaks up on me and makes me tear up right before students are about to march in for the next class! I mean, it’s hard to explain to a bunch of fourteen year-olds that this song is perfect for Cwen right now… all you have to do is change “her” to “him.” They don’t really get that because it’s snowing outside, it makes the lyrics cut sharper. It’s more than hard… it’s ridiculous. (Though there is that handful that get what I’m talking about, they’re not in the class that was coming in, unfortunately.)

So, I drank some hot tea and focused the feels into this blog post, and now I can share the feels with you.

Happy Thursday.

Lina’s Songlist

This one is totally not complete. Totally. Like totally. But I feel like I need to get it out there.  Emmelina Lilybrook

Let it Go performed by Idina Menzel from Frozen
“Let it go, let it go and I’ll rise like the break of dawn. Let it go, let it go! That perfect girl is gone! Here I stand in the light of day; let the storm rage on! The cold never bothered me anyway.”

 Shameless by Ani Difranco
“I cannot name this
I cannot explain this
and I really don’t want to
just call me shameless…”

Shy by Ani Difranco
“the sheets are twisted and damp
the heat is so great
and i swear i can feel the mattress
sinking underneath your weight
sleep is like a fever
and i’m glad when it ends
the road flows like a river
it pulls me around every bend”

Gratitude by Ani Difranco
“thank you
for letting me stay here
thank you
for taking me in
i don’t know where else
i would have gone
but i don’t come and go
like a pop song
you can play incessantly
and then forget once it’s gone
you can’t write me off
and you don’t
turn me on”

Wendy Clear by Blink-182]
“But I’d play with fire to break the ice
And I’d play with nuclear device
Is it something I’ll regret?
Why do I want what I can’t get?
Wish it didn’t have to be so bad”

Inside Out by Eve 6
“I would swallow my pride, I would choke on the rinds
But the lack thereof would leave me empty inside
Swallow my doubt turn it inside out
Find nothin’ but faith in nothin’
Want to put my tender, heart in a blender
Watch it spin around to a beautiful oblivion
Rendezvous then I’m through with you”

 She’s a Rebel by Green Day
“She’s a rebel, she’s a saint
She’s the salt of the earth and she’s dangerous
She’s a rebel, vigilante
Missing link on the brink of destruction”

Extraordinary Girl by Green Day
“She’s an extraordinary girl in an ordinary world
and she can’t seem to get away…
Some days he feels like dyin’; she gets so sick of cryin'”

 Little Sister by Jewel
“My little sister is a Zombie in a body
with no soul in a role she has learned to play
in a world today where nothing else matters
but it matters, we gotta start feeding our souls”

Bad Romance by Lady Gaga
“I want your drama
The touch of your hand
I want your leather-studded kiss in the sand
I want your love
I want your love
(Love-love-love I want your love)”

 Topeka by Ludo
“I taste blood everytime I think of summer
If that’s true, I’m in for quite a treat
’cause I’m beggin’ for the sun in a mid-Missouri winter
waitin’ desperately to get outta town.
No, you can’t keep a good man down…
Every saint has a past, every sinner has a future
so you know what keeps me hanging around”

Whipped Cream by Ludo
“I think I’m entitled to your body gotta
little problem with personal space and I’ve been
poundin’ the Jaeger. my breath and behavior
have been driving the patrons away.”

 Girl Like That by Matchbox Twenty
“I put my hands around your shoulder
You’re saying you’re scared is all
I think I know too much about you
You think this life would make me colder
I’d give in to the alcohol
I put my loving arms around you, child

You knew damn well there was nothing going on
Is that what makes you feel damn worthless”

 Feral by Noe Venable
“I wanna run ’til my feet start bleeding
I wanna make it all the way to the ocean
I wanna live for life and no other
Cause I don’t ever wanna be like my mother
I wanna learn to walk on the water
Cause I don’t wanna be like my father
I have a sister and I got a little brother
And I don’t ever wanna be like them either

Uh uh Uh

I had a place I’d go in the garden
Where I’d pretend that nobody made me,
Watch the sun going down on the day like a
Gentleman going down on a lady
And I had friends who would come and meet me
And we would stay ’til early evening
Singing, “we’re not gonna die away so easy
We’re not gonna die away die away, no”

Uh uh UH!

I’m not scared to walk like a lady
And I’m not scared to cry like a baby
I’m not scared I’m not scared I’m not
I’m not scared I’m not…”

You I by Matt’s Dad’s Basement (Local band from mid-90s. Most famous for the song Tupac. Cant’ find You I on the YT; might put it up there if I can find it again.)
“And I feel abandoned
And I feel like I’ve been forgotten…”

Fix You by The Offspring (and Piano Felix’s version, too…)
“She wakes up
Rage and grace
Pulling me closer, pushing away
And me
The sharpest thorn on your vine
Twisting and turning
We’re all intertwined”

Lost in You by Sugarcult
“Six months went by
I almost forgot your face
Till they played that song tonight
The one we used to hate

Lost in you
And I can’t find myself again”

 In the Springtime of His Voodoo by Tori Amos
“In the Springtime of his voodoo
He was going to show me spring”

She’s Your Cocaine by Tori Amos
“If you want me to
Boy I could lie to you
You don’t need one of these to let me inside of you
And is it true
That devils end up like you
Something safe for the picture frame
And is it true
That devils end up like you
So tied up you don’t know how she came
She’s you Cocaine
She’s go you shaving your legs…”