A Bitter Pill: Broken

“In this farewell
There’s no blood, there’s no alibi
‘Cause I’ve drawn regret
From the truth of a thousand lies
So let mercy come and wash away
What I’ve done”

-“What I’ve Done” by Linkin Park

From Enjin mail RP with Hallowisp (Rheb), edited to include the colour of her skirts, because somehow that is important:

Full of alarm, Cwen called after him, but it was far too late. Heedless of the mud, she hitched up her deep pink and white skirts only to keep them from impeding her stride as she ran toward the spot where he disappeared over the land.

“Rheb! Rheb, wait, please!”

Reaching the crest, she searched the darkness with vision blurred by tears.


It was no use. Though his flight left scars in the mud, she knew she’d be unable to track him in the dark for long. She sank to her knees and buried her face in her hands.

She cried there until the cool air, warm compared to Forochel’s frost, sank into her body and numbed her sobs. Her hat had come half-off in her pursuit and she pulled the rest of the pins free. Long, dark hair fell around her face and shoulders and she didn’t bother putting it back up.


She began to shiver harder and suddenly concern darkened her features. She pushed herself to her feet. Long streaks of brown sullied her skirt outlining her knees. She didn’t notice them.

“What have I done?” she whispered to the woods.


The Bottle by Cwen

Little blue,
I see you.
Beckon to me with promise: release.
Freedom, find me; grant me peace.
Go numb, regret.
What I’ve done.
And what’s been done to me,


Don’t wake me from the dream
It’s really everything it seemed
I’m so free
No black and white in the blue”

-“Blue” by The Seatbelts


“It was just a dream,” Cwen murmured as she sat on the banks of the Dunwash near Fiddler Falls. “Dreams have to come of an end. You have to wake up.”

The musical cascade of the falls soothed her as she watched the sun play in the spray with bleary, red eyes. Each outstanding blood vessel could lead a brave soul willing to hold her gaze to a different memory that threatened to hemorrhage with each passing breath.

“So pretty,” she murmured as she reached for a blurry rainbow that dissipated as quickly as it formed leaving behind only the blue of the rushing water.

Without warning, tears welled up and clung to her thick lashes. Her eyes closed and she swayed gently from side to side as they fell in rivers down her cheeks and off her chin to splash against her hands that rested on her ruined skirts. Her breath caught, ragged in her throat, and the swaying stopped.

“I have to wake up. It was just a dream.”

She opened her eyes.

Cwen Sings: Rain

Listen! There’s some “She’s using a cheap mic” distortion, but eh.


Cowboy Bebop is one of the classics. I don’t care who you are or what you like, you must like CB to be my friend. I mean, Spike Spiegel. Jet Black. Yellow vinyl-clad Faye Faye. Edward Wong Hau Pepelu Tivrusky IV. And Ein. I never had a particular fondness for corgis until I met Ein.

And let’s not forget the music. The soundtrack is absolutely brilliant and plays a vital role in the series. The music of the Seatbelts drives the series as much as the great characters – it is practically a character itself. Therefore, it is easy to use their songs in the soundtrack of life, er, the lives of my characters.

I envision Eirikr possessing the same intensity as Spike. Mellow and relaxed until something gets under his skin and then he’s yelling at Jet for bell peppers and beef sans beef. Calm and collected until he’s scented his prey. Roguish. Charming. And haunted. Broken. But surviving.

Rain is from The Ballad of Fallen Angels.” Spike is facing he ex-partner who recently murdered their mentor and kidnapped Faye Valentine, who Vicious used as bait to get Spike to show. “When angels are forced out of heaven, they turn into devils…”